Smudge Patterns, reflective of the various spiritual influences and experiences in my life, are often poems about the journey. The journey of self, of belonging, of making a difference, of seeing, of finding voice, and of making sense. These poems are often created in the intersection between dreaming and wakefulness, whether that's in dreams before dawn or during daytime moments when reality tilts or blurs. "bareback dream" awoke from a dream many years before I actually moved back to Missouri. As a little girl I always wanted to ride horses bareback. This dream girl did that and more. She's still on the journey.
New revision January 10, 2015...
New revision January 10, 2015...
bareback dream said she'd hitchhiked from the desert to Missouri. kept looking west as if the sun called her home. wanted to know if her friends had really missed her, but forgot their names with each new dawn. on a walk down Main Street her feet echo each storefront traces of ruins trailing behind. the wheel-hum of cobblestone reminds her of mom's horses, bareback morning dreams and fireflies through wheat field summer nights. she wants to rope herself in four directions to find the life she keeps oversleeping. ©Erin Croley |